This is my bowling outfit. K and I are heading over to the alley this evening to bowl 'til we drop (and hopefully some pins do...), eat pizza, and be awesome. I'm really not very good at bowling (and K is a champ, since he has bowled twice a week at work for the past two years...), but I really enjoy it anyway. I've always had a seriously competitive spirit (it's in my genes), and I love love love organized games of all kinds--from bowling to bananagrams and back again. I thought I would embrace the spirit of youth and fun with this little babydoll dress.
That said, two things:
1. I feel as if this dress really isn't very flattering, and probably wouldn't be terribly flattering on anyone over the age of fifteen unless she had a baby figure. I am not an anatomically incorrect baby doll, so there you go (ps did anyone hear that segment on NPR last night re: the use of real orphan babies for "practice" in women's college programs during the fifties?). Anyway, I have been dying to find a dress with a peter pan collar and when I saw this on the racks at Forever 21 I knew it just had to be mine... regardless of the fit. And I love it anyway. Call it a Practice Baby(-doll dress).
2. I decided yesterday that I am not a playful person. This is something that I have been trying to come to terms with for a while now, and I finally decided--I just don't like to "play." This is one of those creeping self-doubts that has surfaced because of the internet. Many bloggers seem so full of whimsy, so full of childlike spirit--and I'm really not. When I go to the beach, I don't want to splash in the waves or build sandcastles or hermit crab hotels (like I did as a child)--I would rather bask in the sun with a trashy novel or the latest Vogue and dive in the water only to cool off and float around. When it snows, I don't particularly want to have snowball fights or build snowmen or make forts--I would rather go ice skating or cross country skiing or sledding. Even when I was a kid, I spent hours upon hours directing elaborate plays, and I always enjoyed the setup more than the execution. I don't, however, think this makes me any less interesting or imaginative. I like to be tormented or elated by prose, to be inspired by obscure films, to have late-night philosophical conversations over a bottle of wine, to dance all night to great music, to explore new places and try new foods--I want to live explosively, but I don't necessarily want to play.
What type are you? Do you prefer organized games to make-believe? Or do you, like Peter Pan, never want to grow up?